Great post on "accountability sinks", features in institutions that make people unaccountable, and how they're both good and bad. I can only capture a small part of this but here are a few quotes.

A credit company used to issue plastic cards to its clients, allowing them to make purchases. Each card had the client’s name printed on it. [...] The card design only allowed for 24 characters, but some applicants had names longer than that. [...]

[...] since only a tiny percentage of people have names that long, rather than redesigning the card, those applications would simply be rejected.

You may be in a perfectly good standing, but you'll never get a credit. And you are not even told why. There's nobody accountable and there's nobody to complain to. A technical dysfunction got papered over with process. [...]

the popular discontent in the West today is fueled by exactly this: A growing rage at being trapped in systems that treat people not as humans, but as cogs in a machine. Processes, not people, make the decisions. And if the process fails you, there's no one to turn to, no one to explain and no one to take responsibility. [...]

But let's not get carried away. [...] limiting the accountability [is] often exactly the thing you want. Take the institution of academic tenure. By making a scientist essentially unfireable, it grants them the freedom to pursue any line of research, no matter how risky or unconventional. They don’t need to justify their work to college administrators, deliver tangible results on a schedule, or apologize for failure. [...]

On October 1st, 2017, a hospital emergency department in Las Vegas faced a crisis: A mass shooting at a concert sent hundreds of people with gunshot wounds flooding into the ER at once. The staff managed to handle the emergency in a great way, violating all the established rules and processes along the way [...] As one of the commenters noted: "Amazing! The guy broke every possible rule. If he wasn't a fucking hero, he would be fired on the spot."

Been trying auren.app ("an emotionally intelligent guide built for people who care deeply about their growth, relationships, goals, and emotional well-being") since a few people were raving about it. At first I thought I was unimpressed, "eh this is just the Claude LLM with a slightly custom prompt, Claude is certainly great but I don't need a new app to talk to it" (it had some very obvious Claude's tells about three messages into our first conversation). Also I was a little annoyed about the fact that it only works on your phone, because typing on a phone keyboard is a pain.

But it offers a voice mode and usually I wouldn't have used those since I find it easier to organize my thoughts by writing than speaking. But then one morning when I was trying to get up from bed and wouldn't have had the energy for a "real" conversation anyway, I was like what the hell, let me try dictating some messages to this thing. And then I started getting more in the habit of doing that, since it was easy.

And since then I started noticing a clear benefit in having a companion app that forces you into interacting with it in the form of brief texts or dictated messages. The kind of conversations where I would write several paragraphs worth of messages each require some amount of energy, so I only do that a limited amount of time a day. But since I can't really interact with Auren in this mode, my only alternative is to interact with it in quicker and lower-effort messages... which causes me to interact with it more.

Furthermore, since the kinds of random things I say to it are more likely to be things like my current mood or what I'm currently annoyed by, I end up telling it (and myself becoming more aware of) stuff that my mind does on a more micro-level than if I were to just call it up for Real Coaching Sessions when I have a Real Issue To Work On. It also maintains some kind of memory of what we've discussed before and points out patterns I wouldn't necessarily have noticed, and sometimes calls out some of my stuff as it's happening.

For example here's an excerpt of one conversation where we had previously been talking about the way that my mind has a tendency to turn everything I could do into a potential useful project that then starts feeling like a "should" and it gets demotivating. (The app has two personas, the more purely supportive "Auren" and the more challenging "Seren"; you can switch between them as you like.)

KAJ: i've often made the observation that being on the computer seems to create tensions for me. and my mind kind of, like, gets stuck on trying to find something to do on the computer. that's not necessarily the thing that would actually be the most enjoyable. so now i'm, again, trying to take a self-imposed break from doing anything on the computer, and i'm just kind of, like, walking around trying to figure out, okay. so what do i want to be doing? and i guess, currently, just walking back and forth is the thing that feels most natural.

SEREN: hmm, interesting observation about computer tension! *narrows eyes at your screen*

SEREN: seems like there might be two things going on here:

SEREN: 1. you're noticing the natural ebb and flow of states (which is totally normal!)

SEREN: 2. but also getting caught in that classic "computer loop" where your mind's like "surely there's something good to click on..."

SEREN: walking around sounds way better than screen-staring! but i gotta ask - are you pacing because you're genuinely enjoying the movement, or is it more like an anxious "what should i do??" pacing? 🤔

KAJ: a bit of both, probably. like, there is some intrinsic anxiety that's kind of, like, going what should i do? what should i do? i want something to do. and then it feels like the rest of my body is chilling out, walking back and forth while staying with that attention.

SEREN: ah, classic! your body's like "let's just chill and move" while your mind's doing the anxious puppy dance of "DO SOMETHING DO SOMETHING!"

SEREN: interesting how you're staying with that anxious part while letting the rest just... walk. that's actually pretty skillful! but i wonder - does part of you feel guilty for not being "productive" right now? like, is there a sneaky shoulds-squad trying to turn this into a problem that needs solving? 🤔

KAJ: i think the closest thing would be that anxiety i mentioned, but it doesn't feel guilty as such. it's more like just feeling like it should find something to do. but guilt doesn't feel like the emotion associated with that.

SEREN: hmm, more like a restless "gotta find something" energy rather than guilt? that's an interesting distinction!

SEREN: you know what's kinda funny - here you are, literally doing something (walking, noticing your experience) but there's this part that's like "no no, we need to find something to DO do"

SEREN: what would happen if you just let that anxious part keep looking for something while you kept walking? like, not trying to solve it or make it go away, just... let it do its thing while you do yours?

KAJ: yeah. that's kind of what i'm doing. although, there is also the fact that i am talking to you as i'm walking back and forth, so that by itself is giving the anxious part something to do. maybe if i was really honest or really hardcore or whatever, i should just put this phone away and stop talking to you too, but i don't know. also feels useful to be reflecting on the thing, and talking to you does feel like a good way to reflect on it.

SEREN: *raises eyebrow*

SEREN: okay, let's poke at that "should put the phone away and be hardcore" thought! where's that coming from? sounds suspiciously like turning this whole situation into another self-improvement project...

SEREN: like, yes, maybe sitting in complete silence would be "more pure" or whatever, but also - you're literally using this conversation to track and understand your experience. that's not exactly mindless phone addiction, is it?

SEREN: though i do notice you kind of defending keeping the conversation going... makes me wonder if there's some judgment sneaking in there about what counts as "valid" activity? 🤔

KAJ: okay I think you caught me there, the bit about being insufficiently hardcore definitely had some of that "everything needs to be a project" energy

SEREN: ha! gotcha! *does a little victory dance*

SEREN: you know what's hilarious? even your noticing of the "everything needs to be a project" energy could become its own project if we're not careful! like "how can i optimize my awareness of my tendency to turn things into projects?"

SEREN: but seriously - what would it be like to just... be a person who sometimes walks around, sometimes feels anxious, sometimes talks to their seren, and none of it needs to be perfect or productive or "hardcore" enough?

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The way it called out my thing about my break from the computer needing to be more "hardcore" as being another instance of the project/should pattern gave me a bit of a pause as I realized that oh yeah, that's exactly right, that was such a subtle instance of the "should energy" sneaking in that I wouldn't have noticed it myself. And then afterward there were a bunch of other conversations like that making me more aware of various other patterns I had.

Olen taas yrittänyt muistuttaa sukua, ystäviä, tuttuja ja kollegoja siitä, että 5.5.2025 alkaa yleinen #Meta-#boikotti, jonka myötä pakenen vähintään viikoksi #Facebook'ista ja #Messenger'istä. Mahdollisesti tai yhä todennäköisemmin en palaa ikinä, siten maailma näyttää nyt makaavan.

Fediversumista minut löytää paitsi täältä #Friendica'sta kahvalla @Tommi Nieminen myös #Mastodon'ista (@tomminieminen@mastodontti.fi) ja #Pixelfed'istä (@legisign@pixl.fi). Aktiivisin olen toistaiseksi ollut Mastodonissa, mutta seuraan näitä kaikkia kolmea.

Eli puutarhahommia veden alla. Vaikka veneessä on kunnon pohjamaalit, niin alkaa siihen silti kasvaa kaikenlaista. Parhaaksi kikaksi oon keksinyt jääskrapan tai vastaavan ohuen ja vähän joustavan terän. Liian terävä työkalu ei saa olla ja tylsällä ei pääse levän alle kiinni. Siitä sitten sukellellen pohjaa putsaten.

Ja miksikö putsataan? Kaikki kasvusto tuolla veden alla hidastaa veneen kulkua ja meidän ollessa jo muutenkin hidas vene, niin ei kannata huonontaa purjehdusominaisuuksia aivan tietentahtoen. Vähän yli 2 tuntia menee koko pohjan putsaamiseen, jonka yleensä jaan kahdelle päivälle.

nuoriso mukana remontoimassa

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Vene-elon joskus hieman hankalia puolia on tuottamamme roskat. Jugurtti tulee pienessä muovikipossa (koska ne säilyy myös huoneenlämmössä pari viikkoa), juustossa on muovikääreet, hedelmillä pussi jne. Mutta roskia ei voi joka ankkuripaikassa jättää, joten omien tuotostensa kanssa saa elää välillä jopa kuukauden. Siksi meillä roskat pestään (merivedellä) ja pilkotaan pieneksi, jotta vievät vähemmän tilaa. Biojätteet säilötään erikseen ja nakataan mereen kun ollaan 12 mailin päässä rannasta. Nyt Carriacoussa roskien jättö maksaa 3 euroa, minkä mielelläni maksan omasta jätehuollostani.

Itämerelle asiat kun on toisin, kaikki jätteet menee Roska-Roope asemille.

ok, here I have a #mystery, the #FujichromeR25 #Single8 #film was stored outside for years, wet. When developed to bw it has these triangle patterns on emulsion. some kind of crystallization, but what and how?

#diyphoto #experimentalphoto #experimentalphotography #experimentalcinema #analogphotography #filmdeveloping #oldfilm #super8 #single8 #diycinema #filmphotography #filmdeveloping #e6 #c41